Lately I have been feeling the weight of other peoples needs for work and money and their struggle of not finding relief is begining to pulling me down and eat at me. My desire and willingness to help other people is so very important to me - and it begins to become a damper or overall pain when I feel like the responsibility fully lies in my hands - not that I am not capable of helping - but I do not need the weight of those around me to dampen my passions and excitement for life by giving me worries or doubts in the world or the economy....eeeek!
My mother always said "Never let them see you sweat" - because it shows a lack of personal strength.
In this world it is important that we are strong people individually - strong enough in showing value to who we are - people who do not nag or show a need for work will survive in the end. In the theater world - more specifically - we are taught to never show in the audition room the NEED or overall want for that particular job, for it seems TOO DESPERATE. Lately, I am starting to observe this reality and the truth that it holds. I feel the weight on myself and amongst those around me - I love them (my friends) - and hopefully soon it will be less of a NO from me and more a reality of YES to be able to help - I need support and not fear in the future ahead.
I guess this is more an awareness post today - for whom - who knows.