Can I be honest here...one year ago I began my companies...in an effort to have a day job. Non of these were ever meant to replace my passion and personal goals in my life...which is to perform on stage. Have I created a business now that states who I am as a person or am I stronger than that and can I fight against the obvious thing standing in front of my way...my own fear.
I have been so blessed in this New York community...I have been accepted by many if not most casting directors to be whom I am...and celebrate that. I have had the pleasure of auditioning for roles that scream my name - Broadway shows - that truly celebrate ME. Why am I so scared now...after taking two years away from the audition circuit...now...to get back in the fight..yikes, that scares me?
I am vocally in the best place I have been in years...and truly feel that I get how to audition..more now than I ever have before. I guess, perhaps, I am somewhat afraid now that perhaps I am to good of friends with those who make the decisions...and don't want to make a possible fool of myself....not that I would...its just the fear I guess I have. (There I said it) Now, just get out and do it.
I am going to commit myself to get back into Ballet...yeah...that is right...I am finding my roots again in dance...and hitting the bar (lets hope I don't actually hit the bar!) lol! I have never left voice training and am so grateful for that (THANK YOU JAMES AND ROXANN).
Wish me luck or break a leg on this endeavor to getting back into the audition scene...its scary out there I tell ya! :)