Me Me Me Me Me....Ya know....They may not like me for saying it....but I have to look at myself everyday...so I might as well like what I am looking at. Right? lol!
So recently I had an argument with my roommates over a stupid mistake in my life. A mistake which sadly has caused them some harm and discumfort. I as a sane human being am trying to resolve things...keep a smart mind about myself. It is sad that some people take emotions and personal issues in my life (which really have no value outside of conversation and simply knowing) and try to throw my personal life back in my face. One of these friends(roommates) bawks on how they are giving to the world and giving to forgiveness of those who are less fortunate - however when placing value on forgiving a friend...or someone they live with, that belief system is thrown out the door. And another friend (roommate) whom I have allowed he let his partner live in my apartment - the apartment that I hold a lease to - says to my face that I am forgiven and that we are friends, and then teams up with this other person and creates some sort of negative feelings against me. I WILL STATE THIS ONCE - AND ONCE ONLY - I CAN DO WITH OR WITHOUT YOU IN MY LIFE...I HAVE TRIED TO MAKE THIS BETTER AND RESOLVE ALL SITUATIONS...BE IMMATURE AND PLAY THIS GAME OF UNFORGIVENESS AND WATCH ME PUSH - AND I WILL PUSH.
Anyway... there are beauties of this life...one of them who is Sarah Byrne. While I was taking care of Michael Freeman in the Hospital and his dear dog MADDY...I found out who my true friends were. Sarah - who is a chaplain for NYU medical - and my personal bestest friend EVER - came and spoke to Mike and me while we were there. I wish her all the best in life...it is amazing how her and I have been through so much...and how we continue to stay close. Knowing someones true heart can give you greater value in life. Placing value on the here and now and not forgiving will continue to damage you in the future.
Two things I have learned during my hard times in my life...and a wise man from my Graduate Program said to me...1. Never allow the little things in life to harm you, because placing value on the little things creates big messes. 2. Never allow money to stop you from achieving your dreams. Take it or leave it...I love those comments.
Anyway...I have a lot of fire burning inside my emotions today..because I had people whom I thought valued or loved me...threaten me over email. Really...are we still so young and can't grow up?!?
Wishing everyone who reads this a wonderful day...and a reminder that life is full of mistakes, challenges and heartaches. Forgiveness of ourselves and others is possibly the biggest challenge we will learn.
What do you think of the Headshots I took with Nyle Caisley and Shane Maritch...let me know!