Issues...Argghhh! - Blabbing.

It is Wednesday...I am falling behind on so many things....my promises to myself most of all which suck more than I want to admit.  I am still dealing with this issue with Mike Davids of Special Productions...or whatever company he likes to admit that he is associated with.  I have spoken to my Lawyers...and rather than waiting on his terms we are moving forward with the courtcase...which I honestly would rather not do...but when someone keeps on delaying everything for their own gain...its wrong.  And I agree.  So that drama continues to move forward.  

I find myself attaching to people...giving my all...only to realize they cannot commit to their own word(I am not innocent with that either in the past).  

Also...One thing that really make me laugh (in sarcasm) is when someone I know and love expresses to me what I need to change...and yet in their own life dont have the strength and ability to make change in themselves.  If your going to be one who offers advice...than you better be that person that I can look at for change...or forget it.  Just Saying. 

Does love actually exist in this world? If it does...isnt love an expression focused on someone else and not yourself? Maybe I am so consumed with myself at this moment in my life that love is farfetched for me.  Who knows.