I want my mommy!!! That isn't a joke. I miss my family, and I miss my mom a whole lot! Call me a momma's boy .... cause guess what .... I am. Regardless of how successful I am in life I will always be fond of my family and their impact in my life. Each of them has such a influential and important place in my heart...and I will forever be grateful for their continued influence on me.
I vacated about seven days from my blogging - so there is a lot of catching up to do. During this time away I have come to realize what a passionate person I am. Not only in my craft but in life. I do care for each individual and their path of happiness.
I realized that I would rather sacrifice my desire for happiness to make sure that another individual chose what was correct over what felt right. There have to often been those moments in life where I have pushed for my desire to be happy...and I have seen others choose their own "now" happy moments over commitment and devotion to me. I would not however allow this person whom I considered a remarkable human being to make the same mistake with me that I know others have done against me. Yeah sure I cried for 5 hours...but I got over it and have moved on. I knew that what they chose was the right choice...and I support them....for making the difficult but correct choice.
Commitment in forms of love or friendship should never be taken lightly. And sadly in New York City people are so transient. Some people do not understand the importance of staying true to one person and when the road gets tough they move onto something or someone else - rather than just humbling themselves and realizing that the change may need to happen in them. I am a patient person...I am a person with heart. And perhaps that is why my heart has been broken for so long...perhaps I believe better in people...when they sadly don't believe in themselves.
So family...I love you...I will always stand by you...and oakleigh (that is how you spell it right? Sorry for spelling it incorrect the first time)